So... long time no update. I don't think anyone reads this anyway so no one should be too worried. And I guess that's kinda of a good thing as well because if I knew who was reading it
(if anyone) then I'd be a little self-conscious about it.
Well, I've been back home for almost two months now and I gotta admit, it's been really strange. I confess that the first month was somewhat of a relief because my mom had been driving me up the walls and we really needed some time away from each other, so that was good. But it still isn't easy to be back in a house where you used to live but haven't visited in a year. It's a really odd feeling to feel like you're back home and then you're out of place at the same time. And it surely isn't easy to be back in a house where you're the kid again. When I was growing up I always had everybody telling me what to do. And still 21 years old and everyone has the need to make me feel like I'm completely clueless to everything, even things I know better than them. It got me... because I was used to get it from my mom, but now is my brother and my sister and my grandmother... it gets to be a little much.
Well, I guess everything after a while gets to be a little much. I mean when Andy went to the hospital to have the baby, I had to stay with Isa, and even though I love spending time with her, having to take care of her for two complete days took it out of me. She's cute and insanely smart but she's very active and you have to take care of her constantly because she likes to go through everything. I was drained.
And then Andy's family was here and it was not like they were bad or anything, but we had 8 people (plus two kids) in a house with 5 bedrooms... you do the math. It was awkward and kinda suffocating to be around so many people all the time.
And truth be told
I feel kinda bad at the same time because I've been spending so much time on my laptop and sometimes I feel like I'm kinda shot out from my family a little bit when I'm supposed to be spending time with them.
But at the same time I'm on vacation and I have a really though semester ahead of me and I just want to relax. My sister is at work all the time so I barely see her, (owes me a lot of money too... money that I probably won't see...) my brother is being his usual self which is not too good, (he told me to go with him to pick up Andy outside of the city, only to have me sit in a parking lot all morning, hotter than hell, not even caring that I had nothing to eat and that I was about to pass out. Had my aunt not gotten there, I would have.)
My aunt is being really cool with me. I think we have more in common now that I'm more in tune with computers and stuff which is her area, and we just talk so easily now and about pretty much anything. I even helped her with some stuff for her classes. Her son, however, who used to be like my little brother has barely even remembered I'm here. I guess he's too busy with his girlfriend and his stuff to think about me.
Okay, I'm done complaining! It was been a good trip too. I saw Gaby and that was great, I swear we could laugh about a fly buzzing. And my nephew is gorgeous, so quiet too. Isa is incredibly smart and she looks insanely cute whenever I play her Fort Minor on my phone and she dances. She's got quite the rhythm too. I've been watching some good shows on tv and I've eaten all the delicious food I can't find in Memphis.
I love coming back here for a couple of reasons, but at the same time... this isn't my place anymore.
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