I'm trying not to break...

So, I can believe I'm here again. A while ago I wanted to post but I had nothing to say, right now I need to get this out so I can move on otherwise I'll go absolutely nuts. I can't fall for Angel again (that's his name by the way, it's a really common name in Spanish, go figure). I came so close to sending him an e-mail today, but it's be pointless. First of all he's never online and even if he got online he wouldn't reply, and even though I know that I'd still be disappointed. I can't help but think about whether or not he misses me or what the hell is going on with his life. But I can't go there again it took me so long to get over that, and now Rox (she's an old friend of mine who goes to the same school) and she insists on talking about him, and saying she'll get him to admit he has feelings for me. And he hates her, hahaha he can't stand her, which makes me laugh and wish I could be there to see his face when she tries to talk to him. And then really, what answer would be better? That he never really liked me and that I was fooling myself the whole time, or that he does have feelings for me but there's nothing to do because he's in the other side of the continent? Yeah sucks both ways so there's no point. Besides he can be really sweet to me, but then he can ignore me just as easily. I'm putting him in a box and closing it, at least for now anyway, lol, I know something will remind me of him really soon, I suck man.

But I was in an awesome mood today so I won't let him get me down. My friend Sarah got her tickets to the concert in Nashville and she's in the same section as me so that'd be extremely fun, it's going to be one hell of a trip. I'm so excited I can wait for Feb 26. I also found out I have some extra cash I get to spend tomorrow and that's always a good reason to be in a good mood. I also got my LPU7 package and I love the shirt, and that made me happy even though the CD didn't have any B-sides and we got the clean versions... but hey what can you do?
I spent the day talking with some friends, I called my sister, I also talked with my sister in law, and I'm being lazy while I can before I go back to school on Monday *cries* so all in all it was a great day, I won't let him get me all depressed.