Not fair...

So I had a semi-bad day today. First my car completely abandoned me today when it just stopped and the it wouldn't start. I freaked out! I was about to take a turn over 3 lanes of traffic! Why would it do that to me?!!! Because it's old and well whatever. It finally started and I got to where I was going but it was sort of shaky. And I'll get into the other thing that bothered me today but let me give you some good news first. Because I have a good GPA in eligible for going to study a month in France. You have no idea how excited my family is. To be honest I'm not, yeah it's great and all but it's not my thing at all. I've never had dreams of traveling the world or anything like that. I'm already studying abroad! So I'm debating whether or not I'll apply. I always think stuff too much, I know that you're going to tell me that it's a great opportunity and that I'm a moron for even doubting it, but it's not my fault that I hate traveling, I just do. I get sick on the place most of the time and I hate the whole thing, I'm a sedentary person. Also, I don't even know what it's going to be like once I get there, what I would be studying, or if I'll have the cash to pay for it. I think in a way I'm protecting myself trying not to get too excited in case it doesn't work out.

Well I'm sure this was bound to happen: I talked with Angel today. Tell me it's not screwed up, I mean, I haven't talked to him in months and when I'm thinking about him again and feeling insecure bam! the idiot makes an appearance. Well I was online today and he was too. I said hello and asked how he was, but then he left me hanging for a looooong while. When I finally said something, he says "what's up wifey?", yes, he calls me his wife. According to him I proposed to him. Then I said something about wanting to go back home and see the people who miss me, and he says "well I know they're a lot but you think if they leave you, we can see each other?", "ok, so you don't miss me... sure we can meet anyway", "of course I miss you, but other people take most of your time so I assume they're more important than me", "what are you talking about?", "well you never call me to ask me out", "wtf? why do I have to call?", "well I don't want to ask you out all the time", "you don't", "well I'm just saying if you're coming we should see each other more than once", "sure, we can do that", "well how many more than one", "I dunno, how many you want", "I'll hold you to that" .... I mean you gotta be kidding me right? I need some outside opinion just in case I'm reading to much into what he wrote. That was just what he said! I should've listened to myself and move on. Now I have things on my mind again.