Wow, almost a week since I last posted. Sometimes I feel like writing something but I never do, I blame it on the holidays. See, I spend most of my day sleeping and well I just never get around to writing. I'd be lying if I said I didn't spend time on my computer, since I spend most of my day with it. But the truth is I don't find myself to be that interesting and when I think I have something cool to write I just don't get around to it.
Right now it's really dark and rainy outside and I keep getting texts from my sister-in-law who I adore, but it always makes me sad 'cause I miss her terribly. I can always talk to her so comfortably and we have so much fun hanging out together even if it's just watching tv. I also talked to my brother and my sister on the phone today. That made me a little sad too. I didn't hang out with my sister that much when I was back home but I really had fun when we did, she tends to be a little bossy but then again so do I, which I guess explains why it gets on my nerves. The point being that I felt comfortable with her considering our age difference (she's 11 years older than me, and my brother is 9). And well my brother... he's a closed off as they come we rarely talk and yet I get teary-eyed when I think about him. This is the first Christmas I've spend outside Venezuela, and so it got to me a little bit today.
I really don't want to get all sad because in April it'll be 2 years since I moved here, so I should be really getting used to this. But the truth is you never do, or at least it'll always get to me. My niece is growing up and I get news of her but it's not the same. My brother and my sister are doing really well but things are still hard in the city. My cousin who used to be like my little brother is growing up so fast and we rarely talk anymore. One of my best friends got mugged on her way home the other day and even though it makes everyone sad, everyone is so used to hearing those stories... It sucks.
I'm not saying I spend every day thinking I want to be back home, because to be honest when I'm my daily routine (classes and stuff like that), I feel good, I feel like I fit in here, I like my school and I've met a couple of cool people. But every time I get on the phone with my family or hear something from them and I can't help but cry a little. I guess it's normal up to a point to miss your family, and to be honest my life is not that different here. I've never been one to go out much. I'm outgoing but when I'm in a group where I feel comfortable, like a summer a couple of years back which I might tell you about some day... but I still hate that it gets to me.
And my sister just called me so I could hear my niece on the phone. She usually talks to my mom but never me, she gets quiet when I get on the phone. She said my name today though, that was really sweet.
Tomorrow I'm finishing the paperwork so I can start working at school. I wanted to start last year but my visa wouldn't allow it. I really wanted to work in that office 'cause it's such a nice group of people, they had offered me a job after I met one of the ladies who work there at a meeting. She remembered me because I told her I'm from Venezuela and she contacted me to offer me a job. I was really sad when things didn't come through but I told her I'd be back when I got my papers in order. And well, as much as I'd like it I really can't leave on my own for a while so it's good to have any type of thing that's mine only, and well school doesn't cover it. And let's face it, there's nothing better than having your own money. My mom is working on a website and she gives me money when she can, but she usually has other stuff. And my dad is always thinking about paying for school which is not cheap at all. And we all want stuff, I know I always want stuff. It'll come really handy especially when I go to Nashville in February, I have to pay for the hotel, gas and I absolutely want to buy some merch, so I need cash. I really hope everything goes according to plan.
By the way, did you know that the character of the Janitor on Scrubs was supposed to be part of J.D.'s imagination? In you look through the 1st season he talks to no one but J.D., and they only introduced him because the actor asked for some interaction with other characters. I always thought that was really interesting...
I'm going to see who I find to chat and I'll do my best to keep this more uptated in the future.
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