Strawberry Lollipop

I'm eating a strawberry lollipop to see if my issues come from a lack of sugar, lol.

It's been a weird day today. Well, truth be told I've been sensitive since yesterday and I have no idea why. I don't know if it's because I'm not sleeping well or if my hormones are playing tricks on me... but it's seriously annoying.

Yesterday I felt seriously bad with some misunderstanding there was in the office with the renting of the rooms we have for meetings and how a girl that came in here treated me, even though I know she had every right to be upset. And then I got upset when I told a couple of people and they didn't agree with me.

Today, I've been insanely hard on myself feeling like a complete idiot just for a few silly things that any other day I would have laughed off and ignored. I've felt stupid, clumsy, uncreative and useless and a whole lot more stuff on a very short period of time. I have no idea how to stop this mood but totally sucks. Maybe I should stay away from people for a bit because it's not really their fault that I'm taking things way too seriously at the moment.

I mean, seriously... I'm even upset about not watching the Australian Open. I mean, I love tennis, but the difference with Australia is like 15 hours and I'm obviously gonna miss some matches and it makes no sense that it'd be upset about it, specially right now in the early rounds. But I was yesterday because I couldn't even catch the re-run of Roger's match and then when it was live I barely paid any attention at all. I don't get it.

I just don't like so many negative feelings and emotions because those are really had to push away sometimes. It's so much easier to focus on the bad and the ugly that changing your attitude takes a lot of work. I think it might be the stress of getting back into the routine and trying to figure myself out that's got me on a negative mindset but I hope it passes by quickly because it's seriously draining.